Sunday, June 04, 2006

Back To Square One

I had a 'date' with Brett tonight. We went to Chipotle and then saw X3. I liked it a lot though they fucked up hardcore with Phoenix. Cyclops wasn't supposed to die so soon, ugh. Then we hung out at Brett's place a while and talked and had 'serious' discussion time. Everyone keeps saying how much better I'm doing but I don't think it always occurs to people that even I need a break from crying. It doesn't always mean I am doing better, it just means I don't bawl when others are around like I used to. We talked about a lot of shit and it's making me feel worse, and he's going to be here sometime soon and I don't think I can see him. It was hard enough saying goodbye once, I can't do it again. I wish it were as easy for me as it seems to be for him, but unfortunately my heart isn't made of stone.

2 comments:

Tobes said...

I think it's great that you went out and had some fun. Serious discussion time sounds draining though! I hope you enjoyed yourself overall.

Can you avoid the boy when he comes back? Seeing him again is gonna hurt like hell. I try to avoid hurting whenever possible.

Hang in there. You are STRONG!

Sarah @ All The Book Blog Names Are Taken said...

I'm tired of trying to be strong. It never gets me anywhere.